Sunday, September 27, 2009

98% decided.

yeap. finally i've made up my decision. in fact, i have made contingency plans to it too.

after today's visit to SIM Open house, i've fully clarified my inquiries to the course of my pursue for degree certification - i'll apply into RMIT University.

why then my title, you ask?

the leftover 2% is due to the fact that my GCE 'O' Level English grade was D7, and the minimum requirement for entry is at least a pass(C6). However, it's still up to the Academic Council to decide if they would like to offer me that opportunity to study in that course.

pray hard that i may be offered.

Alternatively, if not successful, i'll apply for UOL this coming January, 2010 then. Again, the minimum requirements still stand for application in UOL. BUT! If offered, they would to advise me to take an external recognized english certification program first to eligible me to enroll; i would buy me a good 1 or 2 months before UOL intake starts in next August.

Moreover, i can work full-time while waiting to enlist to UOL too.

God is good.

Nevertheless, i do pray that RMIT would still accept me based on my other 'O' Level subjects and my diploma, though of different course.

Wait on. =)


Praise God!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

disappointed.

just wanna find a good seaside view where i can scream at the top of my voice.

apart from feeling uneasy and awkward inside, yesterday's ATP Shoot for my second year of NS ended terribly regretful and disappointed.

out of 34 bullet rounds, i left just a shot to earn my marksmanship WITH monetary reward of $200 of 29 rounds. so i praised God for His grace to keep me in alertness in the day shoot which cost me to lose 3 shots only. But, after which in the night shoot, i can afford to lose 4 shots in total of 12 rounds. Unfortunately, one hand due to the LED light not tightly secured, cause my rifle to lose it's zero-ing point, the other was that i rushed triggering the rounds when i had more than enough seconds to shoot down the target.

ONE SHOT! just ONE MORE SHOT! wasted my time to seek Medical Officer for certification to rundown so as to earn $200 if i obtain marksmanship. Not only did i not earn that monetary reward, i didn't even earn my marksmanship badge!!!!

ARRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! *scream infinity*

on another subject. just tonight after cell group, i felt uneasy; wasn't my usual self. probably i am tired, still i was too quiet and my mind kept rattling with thoughts. don't tell me Nash's syndrome is back.

screw all da!

tomorrow's SIM open house. just wanna concentrate on my decision to which course and University i wanna do my degree education awarded under.

TGIF. not. TGIW (Thank God It's Weekend). YES!

Friday, September 18, 2009

Ex Wallaby; Ex ORD!

wahahhahahahah!!! Wootz wootz!!! Praise GOd!!!!


it has been confirmed.

i'm not in the list.

i need not go through the hassle to bleach clean my belongings for inspection.

i'm going to handover smoothly and ORD without complications.


i'd have to go overseas Ex Wallaby, no more!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

95% applying, 5% course-recking.

ahhh!! course is the only hinder left to my application to getting my degree education man.

and just after today's service. arise and build is around the corner this end of the year again. needless to say, i need to find a job to pay my pledges for building fund.

that kinda rack that already battered mind; studying full-time, work part-time in between non-schooling days. Then again, since i've yet to decide which course i would like to take, i may consider one of the courses that which starts only in next July, which would give me a good 7-8 months of full-time paid job and experience.

vexing indeed. need God's leading, man.

welcome to adulthood. lol.

heart amplified.

with God.

everything's alright.




who are You, Lord?

Sunday, August 30, 2009

just so You know i still feel.

Yesterday's service has really impacted me, kinda rekindle that lost flame that once blazed in my heart.

i've always believed that God is real, or at least a Higher being over-looking every individual lives, so to speak.

Or maybe to some, i'm just being religious or 'more into the spirituality'.

What ever it may be said of, i know that this small little box in my heart that was once empty has been filled with a presence; nothing in this world, living or non-living can fill. That is true enough for me to believe that this Higher being is evident and living - none other than a Spirit, Holy and Pure, named God.

'What say you?' isn't my focus in this entry.

Rather i feel Ari (Indonesian celebrity), what he testified of his life. Called a Christian, attending church in the weekend, but still continue to sin in the weekdays wasted with alcohol and drugs. That story mirrored my life, in some areas.

i need to go back to where i once was called. But not literally to where or what i used to be or do. i hated that. i left because of that.

i need a fresh walk of life. a fresh beginning. as though one who knew not this God, this Higher being but is curious and hungers for understanding of it.


i've questioned myself. unbelief.

i've weighed the odds. burdened.

i've brood over the past. hurting.

i've reminisced. indulgence.

i've even doubted. failures.

but

i want to try again.
i want to go back to Him.
to say very much i'm sorry...



*smiles*
where's my firm stand i used to have?
here i am, being what i used to be; emo-ing again.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Debut - What Say You? Episode #1: Fashion Immorality

this came back with me after shopping along Orchard Road.

Woman is a gift from God. Some are eye-candy to many, not just men but to women too. Some are, to put in a polite way, not so eye-candy at all. Still, every one of them is beautiful individually.

Unfortunately, the downfall of man caused sin to enter into this world; resulting to immorality of man ranging from being lustful to inhuman act of rape.

Question is:

- is it their natural, beautiful physique that triggers the minds of men and women?
- is it their great sense of fashion or just plain fashion flaw that reveals what is not intended?
- OR is it just the minds of the 'eye-balling'?

Speak your mind, freely and openly.


What say you?