day by day, weaker and weaker.
each moment i see those frowns on his frail skiny face;
my heart shatters.
as much as i could, a smile greets him 'it's ok'.
nothing can be closer than the truth;
the fact his health is deteriorating.
thank God for the best medical prescriptions; the best doctors,
but it's just a matter of time;
the doctor predicts.
not giving up hope;
standing by my grandma and family,
i for one will not fret.
'it's ok, grandpa!'
here's your eldest grandson,
cheering you on!
never will i want to sent you off,
not yet, never this time.
not till you see me tie the knot.
'hang on, grandpa!'
i ain't giving up hope;
so neither should you!
we're all here for you...
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
seconds to paroxysm
i hate myself to see my loved ones suffering and yet unable to do anything about it; helpless.
hope is the only thing i look to.
every time i see my grandpa, lying weak and motionlessly on the hospital bed, looking at me whenever i visit him; only breaks my heart even deeper. i really feel helpless. he hardly can speak nor move. contracted pueumonia. swollen hands. and i wish i heard wrongly and God-forbids, he's seeing the otherside but unable to walk through it?!
DARN IT!!! HELPLESS!!!
besides my frail grandpa, my parents are having a cold war with each other. my dad has the idea to file a divorce?! what on earth is going on?!!!!!
and then came another letter from Traffic Police for an offence i didn't even do, which costs me 120 bucks and 3 demerit points?!!!!!!!
what the f*** is going on?!!!!!!!
all i went was a week of out-field and all the shit is piling up my face?!!!!
is it not enough my work is screwed up and now i need to face a turbulent home and unjustful law?!
f*** this world!!!
f*** satan!!!
hope is the only thing i look to.
every time i see my grandpa, lying weak and motionlessly on the hospital bed, looking at me whenever i visit him; only breaks my heart even deeper. i really feel helpless. he hardly can speak nor move. contracted pueumonia. swollen hands. and i wish i heard wrongly and God-forbids, he's seeing the otherside but unable to walk through it?!
DARN IT!!! HELPLESS!!!
besides my frail grandpa, my parents are having a cold war with each other. my dad has the idea to file a divorce?! what on earth is going on?!!!!!
and then came another letter from Traffic Police for an offence i didn't even do, which costs me 120 bucks and 3 demerit points?!!!!!!!
what the f*** is going on?!!!!!!!
all i went was a week of out-field and all the shit is piling up my face?!!!!
is it not enough my work is screwed up and now i need to face a turbulent home and unjustful law?!
f*** this world!!!
f*** satan!!!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
signs of ageing
Sasha died on me last morning at about 1am.
it all happened just distanced from my home.
at a cross junction turning right, she suddenly stopped breathing and laid quietly in the lane.
it all brings back a couple of weeks ago. unusual signs appeared on her which caught my attention;
symptoms like dim lights, wrong readings of speed on speedometer, etc.
eventually, after weeks, she dropped dead because of a failing alternator.
dad was furious, needless to say, yet he's worried and concerned too. he still came to my rescue.
Sasha got cardiac jump-start thrice to safely parked into a lot.
after work yesterday, loving dad got an extra accumulator and had Sasha undergo transplant enough energy to got her to workshop for servicing.
thank God. Sasha's back.
got a new accumulator and had her alternator fixed. she's not only kicking back up, she's shining brighter than before!
got new stuff for her too. =)
it all happened just distanced from my home.
at a cross junction turning right, she suddenly stopped breathing and laid quietly in the lane.
it all brings back a couple of weeks ago. unusual signs appeared on her which caught my attention;
symptoms like dim lights, wrong readings of speed on speedometer, etc.
eventually, after weeks, she dropped dead because of a failing alternator.
dad was furious, needless to say, yet he's worried and concerned too. he still came to my rescue.
Sasha got cardiac jump-start thrice to safely parked into a lot.
after work yesterday, loving dad got an extra accumulator and had Sasha undergo transplant enough energy to got her to workshop for servicing.
thank God. Sasha's back.
got a new accumulator and had her alternator fixed. she's not only kicking back up, she's shining brighter than before!
got new stuff for her too. =)
Saturday, April 4, 2009
prejudice act.
fluffy clouds shadowing the vast blue skies,
as morning breeze cools my skin.
in an abandoned built-up village sitting in a corner by a table,
here i am writing randomly,
as a deafening power-up generator pedalling in the background.
it's 8.43am, a night had passed since my coy landed on p.tekong,
didn't have a peaceful rest the night before,
'cos my mind was rattling with thoughts;
thoughts that tell me this could be my chance & this could be it.
a time it seems to repeat every year,
which went through many tears.
i'm gonna miss my friends whom once were close,
but i don't wanna hurt them so i must go.
it all seems perfectly fine,
though it is definitely not right.
nevertheless, it has lessen the stress,
no more am i in distress.
i love YOU but i couldn't move on anymore.
the road ends here.
for now.
i'm truely sorry,
will YOU please forgive me.
as morning breeze cools my skin.
in an abandoned built-up village sitting in a corner by a table,
here i am writing randomly,
as a deafening power-up generator pedalling in the background.
it's 8.43am, a night had passed since my coy landed on p.tekong,
didn't have a peaceful rest the night before,
'cos my mind was rattling with thoughts;
thoughts that tell me this could be my chance & this could be it.
a time it seems to repeat every year,
which went through many tears.
i'm gonna miss my friends whom once were close,
but i don't wanna hurt them so i must go.
it all seems perfectly fine,
though it is definitely not right.
nevertheless, it has lessen the stress,
no more am i in distress.
i love YOU but i couldn't move on anymore.
the road ends here.
for now.
i'm truely sorry,
will YOU please forgive me.
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