old songs: evergreen

fresh vision, fresh purpose

longing for one,
since that day You called me again.

yet time after time,
i've disappointed You.

losing control,
losing You.

battles of self,
overwhelming & weary.

a war,
never seems to end.

a desolated land,
permeated with smells of death.

the cries for loved ones,
crush frail hearts.

a tatterdemalion covered with blood,
open wounds with worn out sword.

at his brink of last breath,
on bended knees.

facing the stormy dark skies,
yet searching for a blink of light.

last deep breath,
a wail in agony.

...

whiteout sight,
blackout mind.

at the beat of the heart,
time slows down.

...

is it over?
a brand new world?

new vision?
new beginning?

is that You?
where...

...

my Lord.

greatest battle in the history of humanity

self.

final fastasy: sound of the wind

a long awaited time,

another night in mind.

but...

i wish it wouldn't end so soon;

to stay together,

to know more,

to hear more,

to look more...

as Faye Wong would sing,

my heart would too...

...

 
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

...

everyday SOT moment.

why must it only happen when going SOT or during the course of SOT that blessings start to flow?

is that when faith is needed?

it should be 'going-SOT' moment everyday.

this is faith too.

common sentiments.

“ Sometimes, it’s easier to say that you’re fine instead of having to explain all the reasons why you’re not." - Yini Lee

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never the same again.

good or bad?

every time i pick it up and play,

it's like standing at the summit of a mountain and scream,

sound that comes out of the mouth immediately diffused into thin air.


it's depressing,

it's frustrating,

it's agonizing.


because of my past?

because of what i've done?

or

what ever that's lost, can never be retrieved back?


will i ever play a good piece ever again?