the past was browsed,
and the present braced.
over a week of pain,
finally got some gain.
down and low i was,
facing Jericho walls.
questions after questions rattling in my mind,
answers that were always hard to find.
but after a weekend spiced in seasoning;
God's word convicts with great reasoning.
instead of indulging in daily digestions,
why not also start mediating in daily devotions.
very soon i'm sending in my application,
for my 2010 degree education.
fearing what my future would be like,
really clueless of whether it would be bright.
nevertheless, i shall not trust in man's wisdom,
but wisdom which comes from gold-made Heavenly Kingdom.
all for Heavenly Kingdom's sake,
shall no longer stupor in Sake.
tonight titled "breaching the future",
with Holy Spirit embarking into an adventure.
a las! no longer than 3 months left,
thy vow to give thou very best!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
bracing the present.
continuing my previous entry, one thought came to mind.
as i was browsing through my past entries in multiply; good and bad feelings surfaced back up.
but one that impressed me the most was how i was challenged as a person, by one whom i used to work with in church, in the same ministry. Unfortunately, is now away from God. The one whom I loved to communicate with, make fun of each other with, constantly challenging each other intellectually.
really miss those days.
loved her wits.
my point is i wish i may find another person whom my life would be challenged, constantly, to be a better person, a better man. whom i may share my joy and pain with, whom we may make fun of each other with, whom may go through thick and thin with.
i guess time has changed many; the way we think, say, do, perceive, judge, decide, our circumstances, our future, present or even our past. And most of the time, we, or i've changed so much, i hardly even recognize myself anymore.
still. i thank God for the now. for everything that was or has already passed, all is done on purpose of God.
i just wanna speak out my heart. how much i long to love and be loved.
i'm not satisfied, God.
i want more from You.
lead me to my destiny You've placed before me.
for the Kingdom of Heaven's sake.
i pray.
as i was browsing through my past entries in multiply; good and bad feelings surfaced back up.
but one that impressed me the most was how i was challenged as a person, by one whom i used to work with in church, in the same ministry. Unfortunately, is now away from God. The one whom I loved to communicate with, make fun of each other with, constantly challenging each other intellectually.
really miss those days.
loved her wits.
my point is i wish i may find another person whom my life would be challenged, constantly, to be a better person, a better man. whom i may share my joy and pain with, whom we may make fun of each other with, whom may go through thick and thin with.
i guess time has changed many; the way we think, say, do, perceive, judge, decide, our circumstances, our future, present or even our past. And most of the time, we, or i've changed so much, i hardly even recognize myself anymore.
still. i thank God for the now. for everything that was or has already passed, all is done on purpose of God.
i just wanna speak out my heart. how much i long to love and be loved.
i'm not satisfied, God.
i want more from You.
lead me to my destiny You've placed before me.
for the Kingdom of Heaven's sake.
i pray.
browsing the past.
in my multiply, where i used to blog in, i came back across this entry about life and i wanna post it here in Blogspot. pardon me for the amateur work, but i kinda like it the second time i read again. so here it is, enjoy:
Life is a rollercoaster; often alterating like a twister.
Sometimes it goes up, sometimes down,
much of it goes round and round.
When it's good; drills in a spiral.
When it's bad; dives like a dare-devil.
Often, i dream of the better; but it always turn out a batter.
Don't wish to be a naive fool; indulging in a fantasy of poo.
Life's ain't a bed of roses; only filled with sparking thorns.
However, adhering one's mind to negativism is but a dying pessimist;
so lets balance up and be a living optimist.
"A time to weep, And a time to laugh", there is a season to everything;
the Word of God tells.
Knowing going through the journey, refines the spirit;
than to reach your destination, being define a halfwit.
God is good, all the time;
all you need to do, is to be good to hear His word.
So renew your mind, and start here onward.
Life is a rollercoaster; often alterating like a twister.
Sometimes it goes up, sometimes down,
much of it goes round and round.
When it's good; drills in a spiral.
When it's bad; dives like a dare-devil.
Often, i dream of the better; but it always turn out a batter.
Don't wish to be a naive fool; indulging in a fantasy of poo.
Life's ain't a bed of roses; only filled with sparking thorns.
However, adhering one's mind to negativism is but a dying pessimist;
so lets balance up and be a living optimist.
"A time to weep, And a time to laugh", there is a season to everything;
the Word of God tells.
Knowing going through the journey, refines the spirit;
than to reach your destination, being define a halfwit.
God is good, all the time;
all you need to do, is to be good to hear His word.
So renew your mind, and start here onward.
weather or not.
it's getting harder to breathe nowadays.
be it work,
education,
family,
friends,
church,
relationships,
or
self.
it's all fading white,
moments of flashing sight.
pupil dilates,
ear-drums dynamics.
like Goliath fell onto the ground,
forehead spinning ever around.
last shutters of eyelids,
low pitch call-outs echoed in.
then
by the drop of the curtains,
would it be a new term or a U-turn?
that will depend all in the will...wouldn't it?
be it work,
education,
family,
friends,
church,
relationships,
or
self.
it's all fading white,
moments of flashing sight.
pupil dilates,
ear-drums dynamics.
like Goliath fell onto the ground,
forehead spinning ever around.
last shutters of eyelids,
low pitch call-outs echoed in.
then
by the drop of the curtains,
would it be a new term or a U-turn?
that will depend all in the will...wouldn't it?
Sunday, September 27, 2009
98% decided.
yeap. finally i've made up my decision. in fact, i have made contingency plans to it too.
after today's visit to SIM Open house, i've fully clarified my inquiries to the course of my pursue for degree certification - i'll apply into RMIT University.
why then my title, you ask?
the leftover 2% is due to the fact that my GCE 'O' Level English grade was D7, and the minimum requirement for entry is at least a pass(C6). However, it's still up to the Academic Council to decide if they would like to offer me that opportunity to study in that course.
pray hard that i may be offered.
Alternatively, if not successful, i'll apply for UOL this coming January, 2010 then. Again, the minimum requirements still stand for application in UOL. BUT! If offered, they would to advise me to take an external recognized english certification program first to eligible me to enroll; i would buy me a good 1 or 2 months before UOL intake starts in next August.
Moreover, i can work full-time while waiting to enlist to UOL too.
God is good.
Nevertheless, i do pray that RMIT would still accept me based on my other 'O' Level subjects and my diploma, though of different course.
Wait on. =)
Praise God!
after today's visit to SIM Open house, i've fully clarified my inquiries to the course of my pursue for degree certification - i'll apply into RMIT University.
why then my title, you ask?
the leftover 2% is due to the fact that my GCE 'O' Level English grade was D7, and the minimum requirement for entry is at least a pass(C6). However, it's still up to the Academic Council to decide if they would like to offer me that opportunity to study in that course.
pray hard that i may be offered.
Alternatively, if not successful, i'll apply for UOL this coming January, 2010 then. Again, the minimum requirements still stand for application in UOL. BUT! If offered, they would to advise me to take an external recognized english certification program first to eligible me to enroll; i would buy me a good 1 or 2 months before UOL intake starts in next August.
Moreover, i can work full-time while waiting to enlist to UOL too.
God is good.
Nevertheless, i do pray that RMIT would still accept me based on my other 'O' Level subjects and my diploma, though of different course.
Wait on. =)
Praise God!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
disappointed.
just wanna find a good seaside view where i can scream at the top of my voice.
apart from feeling uneasy and awkward inside, yesterday's ATP Shoot for my second year of NS ended terribly regretful and disappointed.
out of 34 bullet rounds, i left just a shot to earn my marksmanship WITH monetary reward of $200 of 29 rounds. so i praised God for His grace to keep me in alertness in the day shoot which cost me to lose 3 shots only. But, after which in the night shoot, i can afford to lose 4 shots in total of 12 rounds. Unfortunately, one hand due to the LED light not tightly secured, cause my rifle to lose it's zero-ing point, the other was that i rushed triggering the rounds when i had more than enough seconds to shoot down the target.
ONE SHOT! just ONE MORE SHOT! wasted my time to seek Medical Officer for certification to rundown so as to earn $200 if i obtain marksmanship. Not only did i not earn that monetary reward, i didn't even earn my marksmanship badge!!!!
ARRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! *scream infinity*
on another subject. just tonight after cell group, i felt uneasy; wasn't my usual self. probably i am tired, still i was too quiet and my mind kept rattling with thoughts. don't tell me Nash's syndrome is back.
screw all da!
tomorrow's SIM open house. just wanna concentrate on my decision to which course and University i wanna do my degree education awarded under.
TGIF. not. TGIW (Thank God It's Weekend). YES!
apart from feeling uneasy and awkward inside, yesterday's ATP Shoot for my second year of NS ended terribly regretful and disappointed.
out of 34 bullet rounds, i left just a shot to earn my marksmanship WITH monetary reward of $200 of 29 rounds. so i praised God for His grace to keep me in alertness in the day shoot which cost me to lose 3 shots only. But, after which in the night shoot, i can afford to lose 4 shots in total of 12 rounds. Unfortunately, one hand due to the LED light not tightly secured, cause my rifle to lose it's zero-ing point, the other was that i rushed triggering the rounds when i had more than enough seconds to shoot down the target.
ONE SHOT! just ONE MORE SHOT! wasted my time to seek Medical Officer for certification to rundown so as to earn $200 if i obtain marksmanship. Not only did i not earn that monetary reward, i didn't even earn my marksmanship badge!!!!
ARRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! *scream infinity*
on another subject. just tonight after cell group, i felt uneasy; wasn't my usual self. probably i am tired, still i was too quiet and my mind kept rattling with thoughts. don't tell me Nash's syndrome is back.
screw all da!
tomorrow's SIM open house. just wanna concentrate on my decision to which course and University i wanna do my degree education awarded under.
TGIF. not. TGIW (Thank God It's Weekend). YES!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Ex Wallaby; Ex ORD!
wahahhahahahah!!! Wootz wootz!!! Praise GOd!!!!
it has been confirmed.
i'm not in the list.
i need not go through the hassle to bleach clean my belongings for inspection.
i'm going to handover smoothly and ORD without complications.
i'd have to go overseas Ex Wallaby, no more!
it has been confirmed.
i'm not in the list.
i need not go through the hassle to bleach clean my belongings for inspection.
i'm going to handover smoothly and ORD without complications.
i'd have to go overseas Ex Wallaby, no more!
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