Kpop Night Concert 2010

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Spent $258 on a ticket that's about 100m away from the main stage, did i really enjoy the concert, especially my favorite girl group; SNSD performed this night?

I managed to take lotza pictures and i mean like 700 over photographs with a DSLR, credits to Gwennon for lending me her toy and 18-200mm lens. Constantly overloading the camera in burst mode, trying as hard as possible to capture the best quality pictures of the vibe-up moments.

I did so much shooting, hardly did i really listen nor watch any performance, just through the 95% viewfinder DSLR, while battling against the other crazy fan girls and boys who were squeezing around me to get their memorial shots.

Moreover, I had to leave 30mins earlier to catch my ride to celebrate my Mom's birthday, which turned out to be a ride home instead.

Just so you know, I still did give the present i bought for my Mom and she loves it.

What really impacted me most was...

What if...

Jesus, still alive on Earth, as an international famous pop artiste, would the people so crazy over the artistes in this night's Kpop concert scream at the top of their voices, crying their hearts out, do the same all for Jesus?

And then a revelation don on me when one of my OG mates asked why I didn't follow the artistes to Changi Airport to catch their last view and get better photos..

My replay was... "i ain't hardcore...if i do, it'll kill my life...and i don't do one way relationship"

How true, my reader friends!

I can put so much energy, time and effort, let alone finances on my favorite artistes just to gain no recognition and acknowledgement of my existence to them?

BUT it's different with Jesus...

we can never outdo Jesus, when we put SO much energy, time and effort, let alone finances on Him, to gain recognition and acknowledgement of our existence to Him, but because of us, He is always yielding to get our recognition, acknowledgement, love, attention of Him!

such love God is pouring over us!

a two way relationship; where i know i can find my recognition and acknowledgement of existence in God, in His eyes, for His love, embrace, approval.

Much have said, such concerts are but a memory in my heart and the hype and vibe is for a short-period of time.

Not so for my God, as I continually yield for more of His presence, love and grace. And nothing, no concerts in this world can ever replace the love of God for us all.

So did I enjoy myself this night?

By the grace of God, the event was opened to photography and I enjoyed taking hundreds of photos, and capturing the moment of my favorite Kpop groups as much as I could while doing my craft.

Kudos to Jesus...

when there's a hollow in the heart.

articulates just what i'm feeling right now.

be true. be yourself.

old torture, new beginnings.

it's always difficult and painful to go back to the old basics,
but it's never too late to start a whole new beginning.

there will be temptations; there will be criticisms,
but as the saying goes; once you've overcame thyself, you've won half the battle.

it may be too early to boast,
it may not be too quiet to speak out.

for all dreams birth forth from confessions,
for all visions come to pass from convictions.

as God is the source of strength,
so is this new life of breath.

my new pills.

심장.

이 모든 시간, 나는 말을하고 싶었.
난 당신처럼.
정말이야.
그리고 난 희망을 우리가 친구 이상이되고 있습니다.

난 당신처럼!

i hope i'm wrong again this time.

you're just an illusion to me.

you're just a pretty face to me.

tell me you're just thankful.

tell me you're just not interested.

that all this is just a dream; a fantasy.

just another miscommunication of feelings.

not at this stage.

not this way.

wake up.

Wake Up.

WaKe UP.

WAKE UP!

heartfelt soul.

finally gotten the awaited album(2009), i've been saving to buy, long due.

just the right time to speak of what i'm going through right now, and expressing my deep emotions;

screams.

touches my heart.

And now, after all my searching
After all my questions
Im going to call it home
I got a brand new mind set
I can finally see the sunset
Im gonna call it home

- Switchfoot

back to my roots.

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night

- Death Cab for Cutie

the couple that started it all...

if not for them, i wouldn't even come to know of how amazing my life would have been in this wonderful and loving big spiritual family 8-9 years ago, if they didn't decide to build the House of God in the West - City Harvest Church.

and i am greatly indebted to God for His love to have brought CHC to the West of Singapore, and showered His unquenchable love to all, and bringing the couple who faithfully and whole-heartedly running the vision God has given to them; to us, to me.

and i am simply touched and encouraged to see Pst. Kong Hee addressing to his family last Saturday, much more Sun, together with the music team, singing a loving song that bonds the hearts of the congregation.

i love you.

Sun and Pst. Kong!

calling or not? faith will lead the way

title speaks for itself...

[Light of the World]

[Meaning of Life, even in a Black & White world]

[Dad's playground]

*Proud of what he's doing in his past-times*

[POE; i heart]

i really wish i can get into Photography ministry...

amateur or not, it doesn't matter...

'cos..

Lord, here i am, wanting to learn more, teach me as only You can...

i wanna take the most beautiful pictures of Your creation for Ya!

one time too many.

i have so much things i wanna rant in this entry; much less to mention how long it has been since the last entry...

as the days are closing, the more distant i felt. Distant from what; i suppose... everything? i can even hardly know who i really am anymore.

does it always have to be closing to that very day of humanity for each individual, created by a Higher being looking from an unfathomable, dark and creepy air-less void, looking over our shoulders concerned; that it's when i struggle with self-esteem and wallow in my own pathetic pitiful life, brooding over and over and over again the same year, de javu occurance, and the year before and the year before and years back which were just bl**dy old, probably ancient pictures on the walls, gunshot out of that juicy brain of mine!

then a sudden, soft whisper in my heart, calmed the fiery soul, reminising the good old times i had with my grandpa, who probably rocking his chair now on fluffy clouds, smiling over his still-earth-bound family and how it was great then, to sit and dine together as a whole family on Chinese New Year, while Handy, the overly long hairy dog had to look up by the table with big black watery eyes, hoping someone would drop a couple of my grandma's deliciously cooked salted chicken, into his drooled mouth.

then it was the what-if moments, a penny for my little sister, whom i never get to see, nor even feel, in my mother's womb, which i found out in my later years that she was aborted due to medical conditions which would have gotten her worst as an individual if she would to see daylight. i know it had to be super hard a decision my parents had to make then. unfortunately, i do wish i had a little sister to bully, quarrel, you know; do the older brother-and-sister fights, but most of all, to love and protect her.

then it all came down to now...

coming to the 10th year, end of the year, as a born-again Christian, in an awesome, loving family i cannot ever ask more from God, doing my degree program, which i never thought i would make it this far but i love it, 'cites about signing up the Korean language course tomorrow, got a new laptop, lovin' fish like how my mum would weirdly remarked me as a pregnant woman, still single, but available, blessed with any form of love any single child could or possibly would want in his past 23 years of his life!

would i wanna struggle in self-esteem and gay-tear for my life? honestly?

i don't really care anymore... yeah, maybe some days i would, or not altogether... it doesn't make any difference...

'cos it ain't gonna change the fact, each year, i would be reminded of that very day i see daylight from that same womb, my sister was later conceived in, and that there is a Higher being, whether we like it or not, watching over us through that vast black holes to His footstool of Eden; that i wouldn't wanna waste my 24th year away hopelessly not achieving the dreams i have been dreaming, in that palm-sized head clothed warmly in a curb, 23 years ago.

it's about time, long-dued, for me to take charge, as a man and no longer as a boy, to awake from my slumber and be someone i should probably already be!

this is my resolve.

power of visualization and confession

all questions will be tackled and completed with right answers.

there will be no careless mistakes.

there will be no discrepancies,

accountings will be tallied accurately,

right formulas will be applied for the right questions resulting with right answers,

will have more than enough time to check through the papers,

wisdom and peace of God is in me,

by faith in God, i trust; Distinctions for all papers!

AMEN! and AMEN!

Distinctions! Distinctions! Distinctions! Distinctions! x1000

命中注定...or not?

do you believe in fate?

most of the time, i don't cos' i wish to take control of my own life and to walk through the destiny God has placed in my life.

be it my walk with God, family, friends, studies, relationship, career, etc.

short and sweet entry.

i'll leave you with Han Solo's reply to C-3PO in one of The Empire Strikes Back scene when Han Solo was piloting into an asteroid field while fleeing an Imperial Star Destroyer and Threepio tells Solo that the odds of successfully navigating an asteriod field are 3,720 to 1. Solo replied,

"Never tell me the odds!"

suddenly i feel so

unbelonged.

lonely.

unloved.

empty.

why such emtions?

presence of God...

is simply and undeniably comforting.

in awe.

i wept.

all about you.

POE's ideal type challenge

the title speaks for itself, a replica of Korean's Ideal Type World Cup. Hosted by yours truly, JR. The challenge went round with Rena, Dave, YF and June Yong.

After fellowship at T3, Changi Airport. The 5 of us drove down to ECP's C.Nai Cafe for supper and more fellowship session.

We ate heartily and conversed. It was a heartfelt session.

Then an idea of a game came in mind; POE's version of Ideal Type World Cup. 

To briefly explain what this game is 'bout, it's simply choosing between 2 ideal female/male for male and female contestant respectively, and out for the 2 ideal persons, the best type will be singled out for the next match. Ultimately, the contestants will be left with the best two ideal type of persons and one of the ideal type person will be the victor of the two.

So it went round from Rena to the host, himself eventually.

The ideal type persons are chosen in POE and some outside of POE, random questions such as Pst Kong or Pst Tan, for instance. (mainly to females). 

A time of laughters and unpredictable outcome of results. Nevertheless, the results will be kept amongst the five of us.

Whether or not the ideal type person who came in victorious to the contestant is truly the ideal type he/she is seeking, let's not read too much into it.

However, this is one game you may try on your close friends to find out their true ideal type person and dig out that fishy feeling y'all have long felt for that contestant!

Till then, this is POE's Ideal Type Challenge!

JR. peace out!